The time is flying and my babies are getting bigger. I'm learning so much about my men; all of them fearfully and wonderfully made. And with learning about them I am learning so much about myself.
I thought that trying to be "ready" was important when you want to start a family. Nobody ever mentioned that you never really can be ready. Some people get ready financially, some people buy a new home or car, some people "finish" their education. And while all of those things are wonderful, I never thought that I wouldn't be able to family a just because I had not yet accomplished those things. I am married, I'm not too prideful to learn from others, I am open and loving and willing to see things through. Turns out, even that's not what you need to prepare to have a family. You need a superglue-tight relationship with God. I have a relationship with my Creator but it's far from superglue-tight. I'm not always carrying my own weight.
I've heard about the "terrible twos," they never came. It's the "tyrant threes." And with Mehkai presenting more and more of himself and looking back at every evening at what went on all day I feel like I am looking in the mirror and having a battle of the wills with myself. I may not have presented myself in the same ways as he is, but that doesn't mean my heart was in the right place either. I'm definitely on an adventure.
The Latest:
We moved back down to the S.Bay late in April and are starting to settle down. But I don't wish moving with a newborn for anybody. It was a nightmare (for me).
Jerry is AMAZING!
Let's just say that God has given him a new outlook on life and that is to just Roll with the Punches. What does Jerry do when his radiator cracks and is spraying coolant all over the engine, thus creating a cloud of smoke? He grabs a diaper! Not only does he work all day long, and have "strong conversations" with his co-workers about The One, but he comes home with a smile on his face and is fully present with his boys. I am so proud of who God has made him to be.
I am trying to keep my head on strait while having 2 little loves in my life now. I am enjoying all the snuggles and smiles and observations. And I'm growing with all of the struggles that come our way. To keep with the the theme of this blog... I am now working. ;-)
God is so gracious to me. I walked into a V.S. and saw an old co-worker who is now a store manager. After catching up a little bit she told me that she has a position open for me and I have to come work for her. Jer and I were just talking about me possibly getting a part time job to have a sort of ... out of the house hobby that would pay me. With the economy the way it is and every other person needing a job I really didn't think that I would be able to find one that would fit my availability. After all, I am wife and mommy first and foremost! Well God, doesn't forget details! I'm working 3 evenings a week, 12 hours total. The position is flexible as far as if something comes up, it's 3 freeway exits from my home and my boss is amazingly sweet.
Not only is this an opportunity to have an out of the house hobby that pays, it's an opportunity to get out of credit debt! Just typing those words makes me want to get up and dance!
Mehkai is amazing! Life is hard having to try and follow Mommy and Papi's rules but he's figuring things out and if having alot of fun doing it. Recently he got 2 fire belly toads and has a blast hunting for meal worms in G-pa's fishing bait stash and then feeding his toads. And his "Big Brother Present" from Uriah has been very entertaining. We've learned all about the life cycle of butterflies and because the eggs that the butterflies laid have hatched it looks like we're going on round 2. Mehkai desperately wants to go to school! Jer and I are preparing to start officially homeschooling him when the new year starts and we're excited to see what he will think of his school time.
Uriah, oh my sweet Uriah! I fall him love with him over and over each day. He's cooing a lot now and is starting to roll to one side. He is such a happy baby. He finds Mehkai and will lock his eyes on him no matter where he's at. And he really loves getting raspberries on his feet from Papi, it makes him laugh that beautiful laugh.
I thought that trying to be "ready" was important when you want to start a family. Nobody ever mentioned that you never really can be ready. Some people get ready financially, some people buy a new home or car, some people "finish" their education. And while all of those things are wonderful, I never thought that I wouldn't be able to family a just because I had not yet accomplished those things. I am married, I'm not too prideful to learn from others, I am open and loving and willing to see things through. Turns out, even that's not what you need to prepare to have a family. You need a superglue-tight relationship with God. I have a relationship with my Creator but it's far from superglue-tight. I'm not always carrying my own weight.
I've heard about the "terrible twos," they never came. It's the "tyrant threes." And with Mehkai presenting more and more of himself and looking back at every evening at what went on all day I feel like I am looking in the mirror and having a battle of the wills with myself. I may not have presented myself in the same ways as he is, but that doesn't mean my heart was in the right place either. I'm definitely on an adventure.
The Latest:
We moved back down to the S.Bay late in April and are starting to settle down. But I don't wish moving with a newborn for anybody. It was a nightmare (for me).
Jerry is AMAZING!
Let's just say that God has given him a new outlook on life and that is to just Roll with the Punches. What does Jerry do when his radiator cracks and is spraying coolant all over the engine, thus creating a cloud of smoke? He grabs a diaper! Not only does he work all day long, and have "strong conversations" with his co-workers about The One, but he comes home with a smile on his face and is fully present with his boys. I am so proud of who God has made him to be.
I am trying to keep my head on strait while having 2 little loves in my life now. I am enjoying all the snuggles and smiles and observations. And I'm growing with all of the struggles that come our way. To keep with the the theme of this blog... I am now working. ;-)
God is so gracious to me. I walked into a V.S. and saw an old co-worker who is now a store manager. After catching up a little bit she told me that she has a position open for me and I have to come work for her. Jer and I were just talking about me possibly getting a part time job to have a sort of ... out of the house hobby that would pay me. With the economy the way it is and every other person needing a job I really didn't think that I would be able to find one that would fit my availability. After all, I am wife and mommy first and foremost! Well God, doesn't forget details! I'm working 3 evenings a week, 12 hours total. The position is flexible as far as if something comes up, it's 3 freeway exits from my home and my boss is amazingly sweet.
Not only is this an opportunity to have an out of the house hobby that pays, it's an opportunity to get out of credit debt! Just typing those words makes me want to get up and dance!
Mehkai is amazing! Life is hard having to try and follow Mommy and Papi's rules but he's figuring things out and if having alot of fun doing it. Recently he got 2 fire belly toads and has a blast hunting for meal worms in G-pa's fishing bait stash and then feeding his toads. And his "Big Brother Present" from Uriah has been very entertaining. We've learned all about the life cycle of butterflies and because the eggs that the butterflies laid have hatched it looks like we're going on round 2. Mehkai desperately wants to go to school! Jer and I are preparing to start officially homeschooling him when the new year starts and we're excited to see what he will think of his school time.
Uriah, oh my sweet Uriah! I fall him love with him over and over each day. He's cooing a lot now and is starting to roll to one side. He is such a happy baby. He finds Mehkai and will lock his eyes on him no matter where he's at. And he really loves getting raspberries on his feet from Papi, it makes him laugh that beautiful laugh.
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Just ran across your blog again mami. I think you should keep doing this, I love reading your words and knowing you like I do, can see you so animated as you speak them. I adore your insight!
- Jer
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